Friday, November 13, 2015

Broken

I've written this post a dozen times,

And erased it.

I just don't know how to say it.

I don't know how to make it be not

drama,

shock,

crazy,

awful.

Because it IS all those things.

Baby Brother,

Babkcakes little brother,

two and a half years old,

the one we had tried to adopt,

many times,

but couldn't,

died this week.

Yes, we are heart broken.

Yes, we know more,

but right now,

that is not our story to tell.

I know Mama E would covet any prayer

you felt led to give.

As for us,

my kiddos are hurting,

especially Mimi, who loves all babies,

and that baby especially.

And I can't fathom how

I will be able to explain this

to Babycakes,

not now

not in the future.

I have a slow, ongoing

leak of the eyes

and drip random tears throughout the day,

and a very heavy heart,

and a lot of questions

that I'm not sure I want the answers to.


We will miss you Baby Brother.

4 comments:

Sheri Quirie said...

So sorry & crying alon with you. Prayers for mama E & your entire family!

Bethany said...

Prayers and deep sympathy for all of you. There aren't words for times like this.

Katie said...

This breaks my heart. My heart is full of sadness for you and your family. Miss you, friend!

Kendra said...

I wondered how you guys were doing through it all. Praying for you guys