Thursday, January 24, 2013

Post Call

So, "The Call", and it's results have begun to sink in.

 I wobble between being completely calm

and a stress monger.

Most of the time, I can accept that whatever Mama E chooses, and know I'll be completely accepting of her decision,

Babies are meant to be with their mamas.  Mamas are meant to be with their babies.  I believe this, truly and deeply.

BUT, then I have that stomach squeezing moment when I think about the details. 

I  know how hard it will be for Mama E and the new baby.  How much of a struggle it will be for all of them.

Then I force myself to climb back to calm.

We do have a nice distraction from the wobbling, as we're heading to court to finalize Babycake's adoption.  I'm ecstatic that this portion of his adoption will finally, finally be over!


2 comments:

Sarah said...

In so many ways I totally understand. We are waiting to adopt a baby sibling (number nine for birth mom) but she wants to try to parent. So there is this line of wanting to support and another that say the 9th one is NOT going to work. So we drive up to court to support and try not to scream. :).

I thought the mom had loss custody of the first one, and adopted the 2nd to you. The state wont let her keep the 3rd. Eventually something will happen. I do feel and understand for you. In my case I have 4 boys and this one is a girl... :)

Sarah said...

In so many ways I totally understand. We are waiting to adopt a baby sibling (number nine for birth mom) but she wants to try to parent. So there is this line of wanting to support and another that say the 9th one is NOT going to work. So we drive up to court to support and try not to scream. :).

I thought the mom had loss custody of the first one, and adopted the 2nd to you. The state wont let her keep the 3rd. Eventually something will happen. I do feel and understand for you. In my case I have 4 boys and this one is a girl... :)